C.H.A.N.G.E.

CHANGE IS SUPPOSED TO BE A GOOD THING. I GUESS THAT'S ONLY PERTAINING TO EVERYONE EXCEPT FOR ME. BECAUSE WHEN I CHANGE IT SEEMS LIKE ITS ALWAYS FOR THE WORSE. (according to others)

EVER SINCE I MET YOU IVE BEEN CHANGING. IVE BEEN LETTING YOU IN PLACES NO ONE HAS EVER BEEN. IVE BEEN SHOWING YOU THINGS NO ONE HAS EVER SEEN. YOU KNOW MORE ABOUT ME THAN ALL THE PEOPLE THAT KNOW ME WOULD TOGETHER. I AM OPEN. FULLY OPEN TO YOU.

WHEN YOU MET ME I WAS A LAID BACK , NOT OVERLY JEALOUSY, EASY GOING, SOCIABLE, OUTGOING TRUSTING FEMALE WITH THE GREAT WALL OF CHINA BUILT AROUND MY INNER THOUGHTS. NOW I'M A SKEPTICAL INSECURE STUBBORN OPEN BOOK WOMAN. I BECAME EXPRESSIVE FOR U I BROKE DOWN MY WALLS FOR YOU. BUT NOW IT SEEMS TO HAUNT ME. YOU SAY I'M TOO SOFT YOU SAY I'M TOO GAY YOU SAY I DON'T BROADCAST OUR LOVE ENOUGH. AND STILL ILL CHANGE FOR YOU.

YOU ALWAYS CLAIM THAT I CHANGE ON MY OWN BUT IF THE ONE YOU LOVE ALWAYS COMPLAINS ABOUT THINGS YOU DO WOULDN'T YOU CHANGE IT TO MAKE THEM HAPPY  WITHOUT TOTALLY LOSING YOURSELF IN THE PROCESS.  WELL IVE BEEN DOING AND HAVE DONE IT. BUT I SEEM TO HAVE CHANGED INTO A PERSON I DON'T WANT TO BE. IVE BEEN SO FOCUSED ON MAKING YOU HAPPY AND IN THE PROCESS I LOST MYSELF. NOW TRYING TO GAIN WHO I AM... WELL WHO I WAS BACK, YOU'RE CLAIMING I'M CHANGING AGAIN. OH HOW CONFUSING IT IS TO WANT TO BE ME AND THE ME YOU WANT ME TO BE. CAN THEY BE THE SAME GIRL. OR SHOULD WE FACE THE INEVITABLE AND REALIZE THAT WE ARE NOT AS MUCH SOUL MATES AS WE THINK WE ARE. MAYBE WE SHOULD HAVE STOPPED AT BEING FRIENDS. MAYBE I AM GAY. MAYBE ILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU AGAIN. MAYBE I HATE YOU. MAYBE WE'VE GROWN APART. MAYBE WE'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO HEAL THIS CRACK IN OUR LOVE.  WHAT EVER THE CASE MAY BE, HOW EVER IT ENDS, I JUST HOPE FOR HAPPINESS FOR BOTH YOU AND I.